Friday, March 25, 2016

Coffee is My Not-So-Secret Love Interest

Rendezvous Coffee and Tea, Galena

I have taken on the huge responsibility of trying as much coffee at as many coffee shops (chains, locally owned, small towns all included) as I possibly can. And I have included my moms and all my sisters in this journey as well. Approximately once a week I treat myself to coffee that hasn't been made in my kitchen, and I've curated a list so if you're ever in say, Boone, and wondering where you can find an amazing latte...you have my personal reviews to rely on.

One * means it's baaaad. Five *'s mean it's one of my absolute favorites. These scores are based on atmosphere, coffee quality, variety of drinks/flavors, customer service, and price (I'm a big fan of McDonald's coffee and prices, but lately their drive through takes A HALF HOUR...I'd rather pay $4 for coffee and avoid the frustration and a crabby Maverick in the backseat). If coconut flavor is offered, it's an automatic 4-star. /// means we haven't been there yet, but it's on the list! These are in no particular order, but I've tried to include the city's (errrr...small rural towns?) where you can find them.

Fieldstone, TLCC, Twin Lakes

Starbucks *****
Caribou ****
Bruegger's ***
Casey's **
Dunkin' Donuts **
Panera ***
McDonald's **
Chick-Fil-A ***
BAM ///
IHop **
Perkin's **

Ames Public Library ///
Bookends Cafe, Parks Library, ISU Campus ****
Homemaker's, Des Moines **
TLCC Fieldstone, Twin Lakes ****
Gong Fu, Des Moines ***
Cornerstone, Ames ***
Central Perk and Dessert, Fort Dodge ///
West End Architectural Salvage, Des Moines ****
Scenic Route Bakery, Des Moines ///
Java Joe's, Des Moines ///
Dutch Oven Bakery, Ames/Boone ///
Cafe Diem, Ames ***
Cafe Milo, Ames ****
Burgie's Coffee and Tea Company, Ames *****
The Cafe, Ames *****
Arcadia, Ames **
Bossy Mama's, Ames *
Stomping Grounds, Ames ****
Chocolaterie Stam, Ames ***
The Vinyl Cafe, Ames ///
ZanZiBar's, Des Moines ****
LaMie, Des Moines ***8
Smokey Row, Des Moines *****
The Good News Room, Boone ****
Bloomers on Central, Fort Dodge **
DeGroot Kitchen, Sheffield *****
Freedom Blend Coffee, Huxley ***
Bridgehouse Coffee Co, Newton ****
Kafe Geita, Story City *****
Kaladi's Coffee Bar, Galena ***
Mean Bean Coffee Roasters, Galena *****
Rendezvous Coffee and Tea, Galena *****
Crane Coffee, Omaha *****
Scooter's Coffee, Omaha ***

Well that put me in the mood for another cup of coffee.

MmB


Friday, March 18, 2016

A Few Thoughts on: Guilt, Comparison, Busyness

Much like the First Family has an official White House Photographer, I've dubbed Libby Asay our official Boersma Family photographer for the foreseeable future. How is Maverick already six months old?!

I've had a few things occupying my thoughts lately...and they seem to revolve around the topics of feeling guilty...comparison...and busyness. For me, these three things go hand in hand as I go about my days, doing a craft here, snapping a ridiculous picture of Mav and Instagramming it there...trying to stay busy for the 12 hours that Josh is at work with more than just the usual rotation of laundry, bathrooms, dishes, and Maverick needs. It feels like I have to be overly productive and INCREDIBLE at everything. Certainly I should be able to accomplish every. single. thing. all in one day because he's out working like a beast and I just get to stay home and play. I've realized there's some guilt, some comparison with the other awesome mommas on Facebook/blogs/Insta, and a lot of self-induced, unnecessary busyness to try and combat all that guilt and comparison going on in my life right now.

And let me tell ya. I'm overrrrr. it.

In the very first chapter of Jen Hatmaker's latest book, "For The Love, Fighting for Grace in a World of Impossible Standards," it took all of five minutes for me to totally relate to EVERYTHING she was writing about. It was impossible for me to pick just one section, so throughout this post I'll include a few of my favorites in italics. The stuff where she just totally gets me.

All of this is just a tiny part of the awesomeness in her book...so if you haven't already, GO BUY IT. Or borrow mine. I have plenty floating around since I gave both my mom's an autographed copy for Christmas and my sister-in-law Hannah ended up getting a copy for Christmas too.


"The trouble is, we have up-close access to women who excel in each individual sphere. With social media and its carefully selected messaging, we see career women killing it, craft moms slaying it, chef moms nailing it, Christian leaders working it. We register their beautiful yards, homemade green chile enchiladas, themed birthday parties, eight-week Bible study series, chore charts, ab routines, "10 Tips for a Happy Marriage," career best practices, volunteer work, and Family Fun Night ideas. We make note of their achievements, cataloging their successes and observing their talents. Then we combine the best of everything we see, every woman we admire in every genre, and conclude: I should be all of that.
It is certifiably insane."

Ummm. Yaaaaas.

Every bit of this book resonated with me (and made me laugh until I cried), but specifically this idea that I don't have to be good at everything FOR THE LOVE. Stop the comparison. Stop the self-induced busyness. Stop trying to be THE BEST at everything because that other mom on Facebook home schools her five kids and cooks an organic meal every night (go her!). And LET GO of all the guilt that surrounds it!

I immediately started to realize the difference between the things I'm good at...and things I'm not. Reasonable goals in areas I'd like to improve...and areas that don't deserve my energy. Hobbies I enjoy...and hobbies I don't feel like trying because I have no interest.

We looked at a farmhouse a couple months ago (long story) with a really big, beautiful, fenced backyard courtyard garden area and Josh's mom said, "Oh Mollie, you would have such a big beautiful garden!" And I blatantly said..."No. That is not my skill set." Gardening is not something I care about, enjoy, or have any interest in...so why would I throw my time and energy at it? I've started being honest with myself and everyone around me when it comes topics like these and it's been LIFE GIVING.


"We have lost the ability to declare a job well-done. We measure our performance against an invented standard and come up wanting, and it is destroying our joy. No matter how hard we work or excel in an area or two, it never feels like enough. Our primary defaults are exhaustion and guilt."

Millions of other women must feel exactly like I do, or there wouldn't have been a whole chapter written in a book about it by a bestselling author/famous blogger/Christian speaker. Apparently I'm not alone in this.

Jen explains this idea that there are important things on our balance beam, and stuff that has to fall off in order to give our best to what actually needs to be balanced. Spending quality time with Josh? On the beam. Cooking a homemade meal every night? Off the beam (Josh prefers frozen pizza at least once a week, we usually go out once a week, have leftovers on another night, and the other four nights I actually DO cook). Spending one day a week with either mom of mine? On the beam. Excessive family time/events/commitments/gatherings/a schedule filled with unnecessary nonsense? OFF THE BEAM. Saying no to 'xyz' so I can help Josh stay on top of BLC stuff? On the beam, since...you know...that's sort of the reason I get to stay home in the first place. Sunday nights away from Mav so Josh and I can go to connection group for a couple hours? On the beeeeam!

Could I fill my SAHM days with coffee and play dates or walks around Target or driving all over the countryside to antique shops with my mother-in-law or hours tackling my next unnecessary craft project? Sure. I actually DO do all of these things WITHIN REASON. I usually have one morning with friends per week, one small 'fun' thing without Maverick per week, and one day where I hit up Target or Fareway for our weekly household needs, wander around Gap just to get out of the house (because...WINTER), or grab coffee with Jamie. But some days I sit at home, fold laundry, watch Army Wives, and read a book while Maverick naps. It's a wonderful season of just having one kiddo all to myself and I'm going to enjoy THE HECK out of it, without feeling guilty for not blending my own baby food, getting up at 6am to workout, or finding some pyramid marketing company to 'earn extra money on the side' (seriously if one more person tries to recruit me for this, I. WILL. SCREAM.)

That balance beam has given me such a good mental picture to remember when I have choices during my day. When I need to decide between spending the day at home catching up on cleaning and laundry (which I actually *like* at this early point in my SAHM career) or spending the day "playing" out and about, which results in unnecessary stress from the aforementioned cleaning and laundry that is now left undone...what is the better choice? Being busy just for the sake of being busy (and because I 'can') isn't always the best idea.


"Wise women know what to hold onto and what to release, and how to walk confidently in their choices - no regrets, no apologies, no guilt."

I've discovered there needs to be a balance with my duties at home with Mav, Josh's needs from me as a business owner's wife, and my own needs as a new mom. And it involves saying no to random crap. No to the busyness. No to the guilt. And no to comparing myself to the awesome moms I see on Instagram with their beautiful homes and gardens, clever activities with their toddlers, 30-minute work-out strategies, awesome home businesses (have I mentioned how great our photographer Libby Asay is?!), and intricate meal plans. If I'm jealous of their kitchen, I unfollow them until I get my head out of my butt.

Disclaimer: I am NOT GOOD at that balance yet. I painted a shelf a couple weeks ago and forgot about a couple things Josh needed me to do. Stupid. I went to see my best friend a few days ago (since she's on spring break) and ignored the fact that we needed groceries, so Josh didn't have a stellar lunch the next day. Also stupid. We invited friends over for supper, and then I stressed myself out about sewing new pillow cases so the living room looked perfect before they arrived. Really stupid. I've since made a rule that I'm NOT ALLOWED to take on something that's 100% fun, and then get all 'made up stressed' about it because I DID IT TO MYSELF and also...pretty pillows aren't even necessary! I know I'm dumb sometimes, ok?

It makes so much sense when I write it out, but for some reason, all this balancing stuff is really hard for me...

So I've become a pro at saying no without feeling any guilt or second-guessing my decisions. Sometimes saying no isn't my first choice, but it's what I choose based on Mav's schedule/needs/demeanor or our other plans that day. I attempt to balance our marriage/life/schedule with his and prioritize from there. We are alllllll still getting the hang of this.


"We need to quit trying to be awesome and instead be wise."

That Jen Hatmaker is just a genius, and I'm proclaiming this as my new life goal. For me, it starts by ending the awesome-mom-comparing, stopping the unnecessary busyness, living life guilt-free knowing there's grace that covers every minute of my day when I fail at my made-up SAHM standard of perfection...and I'd encourage whoever read this far (mom's, future mom's, or girls nowhere near becoming mom's!) to start living life as a woman who strives to be more wise than 'awesome' at...scrapbooking/working out/gardening/homeschooling/shopping/organizing/Esty-selling/painting/crafting/school/home-business growing/social life/decorating/cooking/looking fabulous/hosting/blogging/blah/blah/blah.

If you're anything like me, you need the constant reminder that in light of eternity...literally NONE of that stuff matters. HOW INCREDIBLY FREEING IS THAT?

You hereby have mine and Jen's permission to forget about being awesome at all that crap, and instead just be wise. I'll be joining you. :)

MmB


Wednesday, March 9, 2016

Maverick: Six Month Update

None of you will even believe how naughty he's been this month...that smile is just ridiculous. :)

Month five to six has probably been Mav's worst. He's been kind of a jerk, actually. Unpredictable, fussy, opinionated...an all around crab from the hours of 5:00pm to 6:00am. With the first five months being as perfect as they were, I'm thinking we probably kind of deserved this. I *think* we're past the worst of it for now, so I'll attempt to explain everything that happened in Maverick's little life for the past month.

We started off month five pretty normal...Mav was sleeping fairly consistently from 9pm to 5/6am. I was fine with this...I was in no hurry to get to the 12-hour mark, but sort of felt like it was coming based on the fact that some days Maverick would sleep until 7 or 7:30 (also not in a hurry because that early-morning breakfast is Mav's cuddliest time so I totally don't mind it). I planned to gradually move up his bedtime and morning wake-up call to be 8pm to 8am. A nice, normal schedule...I felt like this is what *should* and would naturally happen next.

...and then this little peanut decided to ignore everything my Babywise book and friends have taught me and be a real punk blessing this month...

Maverick started waking up around 10/11/midnight every night, after only being in bed for a couple of hours. Which is something he's never, ever done! He wasn't hungry, he was just mad. Annoyed. Acting like a teenager on us already. So we turned up the TV and let him cry it out. Usually he was done in an hour, but sometimes it lasted longer and I'd give in, feeding him at midnight or 1. That would usually get us to at least 4 or 5am, but still made for one tired mama (This boy has never in his little life been up THREE times in the night. I was prepared for that at the newborn stage...I was not at all prepared for that to happen at five months). Other nights he would be up at 1 or 2...mad and crying and hungry. I started the month making him cry that one out, and ended the month giving in and feeding him every time because I was starting to wonder if he WAS actually hungry. And also because I'm exhausted and JUST WANT TO SLEEP.

I tweaked everything in his schedule and there seemed to be no rhyme or reason to his wakings. We have more happy-awake time during the day, cut the catnap, tried offering a few extra ounces every time after he eats to get more day-calories in...no dice. I tried giving him four extra ounces after he ate at 9:00...chugged it...fell right asleep, and was STILL up at 11:30. Unswaddled one arm, recently unswaddled both arms...he had good naps/nights about 50% of the time. Even though it's never been an issue in the previous five months, I stopped drinking wine, eating cabbage/broccoli, or anything super spicy for a week...he was still up in the night. I added gas drops to our nightly routine, he was up an hour later. When he's been SUPER upset, I'll occasionally pick him up in an attempt to calm him down and rock him back to sleep out of desperation (in which I feel like I'm ruining everything I've worked for) and he is downright furious with me. He actually gave me a face that said, "Dude, what are you doing. This is NOT how we do it." And I was all like, "OK YOU'RE RIGHT! FINE!"

There was one particular night from Hades where he woke up at 2:30, I immediately went in to feed him...he ate, finished, burped, fell right asleep when I put him back in his crib...then proceeded to cry until 5:30 am. FOR NO REASON. When I say cry it varies from a whine to a fuss to loud yelling to actual crying to smiling like a maniac when we go in every 30 minutes to pat him. Again...something he's NEVER done before in his life! What. A. Weirdo. I was starting to get used to being up in the night two or three times, as much as I hated it, but being up for three hours straight? PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER MAVERICK.

And pull himself together he finally did. Last night he slept from 8:30pm-6am. The night before he was up at 1:30 pretty ticked, but...full disclosure, I'm pretty sure it's because I forgot to turn on his space heater before I left his room and his hands were kind of frozen when I came in to feed him. Oops. Sorry dude. The night before it was 9pm-5:30am...and the night before that another 8:30pm-6am. PRAISEALLULIA.

But last month wasn't all bad! I'm just trying to be honest in recalling everything the past month and 'everything' includes the good, the bad, and the 2am parties.


Maverick continues to show us more of personality every day...he's getting good at rolling from his back to his tummy. He likes spending his morning in the Bumbo while I make breakfast, clean up the kitchen, etc. It really is time to bring up the high chair, but I'm still holding out on putting the swing away before we bring more clutter up here. For now it works to let him do some eating in the Bumbo anyway. He's had tastes and bites of more things this month...more avocado, banana, grapes, apple, carrot, red pepper, spinach. My haul of Baby Led Weaning books arrived in the mail and I'm power-reading them before I start anything more than just letting him experiment when we're in the kitchen.

We sill love Baby Einstein in the evenings when the crabbiness is at its peak. Mav spent his first night away from us on Valentine's weekend with his G'ma and G'pa and they got a front row seat to his nighttime naughtiness (up at 11:45, fed him at 12:30, up again at 3:00, up again at 6:00...see what I mean?! BAD!) but everyone survived. Mav loves bath time, swim lessons, swimming in the hot tub (now that it's nicer!), walks, his changing pad, being naked, watching his daddy...and he's just started to have an opinion about me leaving the room or putting him down and walking away. Which I secretly like, but will be annoyed by in a few months. ;)

Maverick is such a chatter box. Yelling, jabbering, laughing, 'talking' (we heard 'Dada' this month!)...he wants nothing to do with his paci any more...he takes it right out so he can talk. He pulls away to talk when he's in the middle of eating. He grunts, whines, shouts, and does a funny droning thing in the back of his throat/nose. He still squeals and does the fake cough thing, and he will arch his back when he's super excited about being naked on his changing pad and let out a BIG squeal/squawk. I guess what I'm saying is...we probably have 'talks at inappropriate times' on report cards in our future.

Mav is working on some chubby legs, but we are still stuck in size 1 diapers and 3-6 month clothes. I officially packed a tote of newborn and 0-3 month stuff away yesterday and didn't cry one tear. He doesn't have his six month appointment until next week, so we will see how much he weighs then. I'm not getting my hopes up for too many added pounds...my guess is he's still at the bottom of the charts. ;)

He finally plays with toys, is noticing his surroundings more, and puts everything in his mouth. His favorite toys are tags, our water bottles, paper, and he's real excited when he can get his hands on some plastic bags (yikes)...basically anything that hasn't been purchased for him as a toy. Further proving my theory that THE FEWER TOYS IN THIS HOUSE THE BETTER! Our dining room table was delivered in four giant boxes and Josh and I kept thinking if Maverick was been a couple years older, those would have entertained him for the rest of the winter. They were so big and awesome, we sort of wanted to build forts out of them...


Despite my first couple of paragraphs, Maverick is still pretty easy going. We can go out and about during his awake-time and it's pretty much a guarantee he will be a happy man. Speaking of that, I'll give a quick breakdown of our schedule.

4/5/6am - Eat, back to bed
9:00am - Wake up, diaper change, eat
9:30am - Bumbo, swing/seat/ play mat, errands, walk
11:00am - Diaper, nap
1:00pm - Wake up, diaper change, eat
1:30pm - Bumbo, swing/seat/play mat, errands, walk
3:00pm - Diaper, nap
4:30/5:00pm - Wake up, diaper change, eat
8:00/8:30pm - Start bedtime routine
8:30/9:00pm - Bedtime

We switched to this halfway through last month and it took a few days for him to get used to two whole hours of awake time, but his days have been going REALLY well for the past few weeks, and like I said...his nights have been decent for the past couple days. So we will keep at it with this schedule...until we spring forward in four days and everything goes to crap again. Perfect!

Our 'bedtime routine' consists of diaper, jammies, book, turning on his sound machine, and eating one last time. Every three to four days it includes a bath, and it also varies by about a half hour. If Mav is being particularly crabby, we start the routine and bedtime sooner...risking what time he'll wake up for his early morning breakfast. But there are some days where four hours in the evening is just too much for him and when he's overtired, he doesn't fall asleep as easily. On the days of Bachelor and/of Fixer Upper...I ignore everything about bedtime, feed him in front of the TV while I watch Bachelor Ben, Chip and Jo, and sort of just throw him in his crib with a kiss on a commercial.

His first nap of the day is by far his best. The afternoon nap rarely goes longer than 4:30...but I hope we work up to a full two hours in the afternoon this month because he does so much better in the evenings when he gets more sleep in that second nap. He goes down for naps and nighttime really well, crying for 10 minutes or less, if at all. Now that spring is here and I'd like to have more fun stuff in our schedule, I still try and force myself to be home for one solid nap in his day. I prefer to only have one crazy-throw-the-schedule-out-the-window-day per week because planning around his two hours of awake time, two hours of nap, repeat, and four hours awake, and bed isn't that hard to accommodate since I'm with him all the time.

Our favorite nicknames for the month are:
Little Maverick
Little Mav
Peanut
Little Buddy
Punk
Maverick McCrazy Hairs
Maverick Slobber Hands

And that's more than anyone wanted to know about our favorite little buddy this month!


MmB